It feels strange

But I've started to talk to my mom about how I feel.

Changes

Calypso has left us, and I'm sad about that but glad she's not struggling. The kitten seems to have picked up some of her quirks, which is cute and interesting; Calypso used to go to the cat toy basket and pick up a toy then carry

Little Things

I have wanted to start decluttering here for a while, for a variety of reasons, and I asked Hannah to help me go through the bathroom shelves and see what could be thrown out. Just from that 30 minutes she got defensive and accusing; "You just started to supervise,

Goodbye

Despite the fact that I knew it was coming for a while it still hurt. Calypso left us this morning, with her favorite people petting her and having been able to taste a little bit more of her favorite, sour cream. I cried, a lot more than when I lost

Things are getting interesting

When Gino first moved down here, my plan was for him to move in to this house to "soften the blow" for when I moved out. He moved in, and when he went to register as a sex offender, they said "NOPE!" because there was a

Something was said to me ...

A really smart person pointed out to me that when you delay/kick-the-can-down-the-road on saying difficult things, you're essentially taking out a loan, and that interest starts building. Makes sense. I'm also bad at finance.

It's a reason, not an excuse

I was never very good at making decisions, partly because I'd always say something and internally cringe a bit to see the reaction of the other people around me. When I was growing up, I figured this: most things that were handed to me as a decision to

If I had a certain DeLorian ...

I'd tell high school senior me to enjoy the music but maybe minor in it. I'd definitely tell college freshman me to take more computer programming classes. I'd tell college senior me to not worry, it wasn't meant to work out with

Realizations

I had a chat with my niece today, and we talked about how we are HORRIBLE at putting everyone else in front of us first. She was saying her boyfriend has to call her out routinely to advocate for herself. I'm kind of upset at myself for being

More old memories

The first day of Immaculate High School was filled with such hope and promise, because it was a new start. Maybe I could shed the tag of dork/nerd/pathetic/unattractive/etc/etc. Except that very first day I was still mocked and ridiculed because Jay Gargano, a jock, for

Glimmers ...

I like it. I like this thought a lot and I want it to stick with me. Today's glimmer so I don't for get it; I'm at the Toyota Dealership getting things situated, and I'm in the waiting room. There's

More evidence

So she lashed out at me today because I didn't want to go for ice cream and she didn't frame it as a dire need. She then got passive-aggressive when I said we could go ... "no, it's ok." She's a