I decided to have Top Gun: Maverick on in the background tonight while I chilled out, and I forgot about that last Lady Gaga song ... and cried like crazy about 20 words in. Quite a bit of that song really, really speaks to me and it's actually a
I am still of the mindset that I want to go back ... This doesn't feel like home any more, and it should. I pay for this place. It's my house ... but it's not. This place is a mess. The kitchen is amazingly clean, but
At least remotely (text, social media, etc), my brother ALWAYS has to one-up me. If I share a picture he has to share at least one similar one. If I have a story or anecdote at work, he will always follow up with a "better" one. There'
The woman in the seat behind me is singing it quietly in what I’m guessing is Spanish. sometimes I wonder if people even know they’re doing it
I had put this laptop in my bag about 30 minutes ago but I have thoughts and feelings just oozing out of me right now. I have Sara Bareilles "Breathe Again" stuck in my head. This feels wrong ... not unlike when I left to come here. Both times
One of my earliest childhood memories was the rare occasion when my parents would let the three of us (Wendy, Rick, me) have money for the ice cream truck, which would typically cruise through the neighborhood around 4:00. The time I remember most was running out the back door
You know who you are, and yes, I really do feel that way. Anything that was left you can have. I am thinking about this as such: it's more incentive for me to come back. Oh ... the Tupperware is for your wife.
... but not as much as my heart. Maybe all that fence-sitting is what's hurting my heart? Maybe I need to be more decisive. But tonight made me realize quite a few things: I can't do this alone I need a clan/tribe I need to stop
So I have decided to leave a situation where I've had a long, slow uneasy feeling and trade it for one I felt the need to escape previously. Believe me, I'm questioning it too. The last 48 hours I've been forcing myself to do
I am going to try and journal more. I owe it to myself. I owe it to those around me.
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