After a few days

I am still of the mindset that I want to go back ...
This doesn't feel like home any more, and it should. I pay for this place. It's my house ... but it's not.
This place is a mess. The kitchen is amazingly clean, but the other rooms are like Hannah's parent's place.
There is a standoffish energy between Hannah and I.
At least Huggs went right back to being his sweet self with me.
I have actually talked to my mother a bit about all this. Most of my thoughts were confirmed, but she did surprise me a bit on one thing.

Today's song stuck in my head; Radiohead. "I don't belong here ... "

In my mind

I see myself driving cross-country in a Uhaul, Quinn there with me. I'm happy as I know I'm going to a place where I can be myself. I'm going to a place where I can maybe stop hiding, maybe stop shoving everything down. I&

I have been

It's been an absolute struggle for me lately. I feel like most of my non-work time is me being in "distraction" mode, which I feel like I'm in flight-or-fight mode. For a long while, work was the best thing going on in my life,

Frustrations

I've had two customer calls this morning, both very frustrating in very different ways. First was Celanese. The project as assigned is to assist them in upgrading from just our core/flagship product to a "bundle" which includes a few addon products. They've had

Work sucks

It can take a little bit for it to ramp up, but I often forget how crazy busy things can get in February/March for me. I did 51 hours last week and I feel like I had so much undone. Been talking with Hannah to get a refi on

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In my mind

I have been

Frustrations

Work sucks