Grey Skies

It's been really gloomy and cloudy and rainy here the last week, supposedly a sub-tropical storm that didn't quite get there (I feel ya on that one, I often have the same problem).

I've been in a pensive mood today, having some interesting tunnels open in my brain about things that felt really deep, but they were fleeting. In the moment it feels brilliant and profound and meaningful ... and I forget to jot it down. It's almost like when I dream vividly and then when I wake up in the morning I knew I had a vivid dream but I can't quite remember what it was.

So I am back to struggling. I feel lost and hopeless and a guest in the house I pay for. We're under contract on a new house, getting inspections and stuff done. The plan is to eventually make this one a rental, but I would also be ok selling it.

I got a call from the apartment office today that the spare key was turned in. I'm thinking all sorts of horrible, bad, worst-case-scenario things from that.